Saturday, December 26, 2009

It Has Been Six Months, My Dear

Dear Tropic Bear,

As I'm typing this, you are now driving home (not speeding, I hope).

Thank you for today and the past six months. It has been truly wonderful to spend my time with you. All those doubt and hesitation I had when you first took my hand have proven themselves to be worthless as every moment spend with you is a beautiful moment.

Sometimes I do wonder whether we will last in the future. The future seems full of hope if we continue to make efforts to see each other and value our time with each other just like what we do now.

Thank you for all your love and care. It feels great to be loved and to love. To put it in your words, 'it feels so nice to be sayang-ed'.

Frankly, my stomach ache today put me in fear that I will ruin my date with you today. What if we don't enjoy ourselves at the end? What if you coming all the way from home is wasted? At one point, I felt really bad and wanted to go home, so that I wouldn't ruin the day further.

But then you were so caring and loving that I can't bring myself to do that. So I told myself, since I'm here already, I might as well not care anymore and just go with the flow.

True enough, every moment spent with you is special regardless of what we do or whether we planned them anot. Just me sitting on your lap talking about your friends on facebook, just us opening each other's present when the rain was pouring heavily outside, just us shopping for your clothes etc seems to be enjoyable somehow.

Perhaps this is love. Love makes everything enjoyable between two people regardless of what they do. Love makes the suffer and torture (of stomach pain in this case :P) more bearable.

Thank you for everything, my dear. I look forward to spending my future decades with you.

Yours truly,

Friday, December 25, 2009

X'mas & A Day Away From 6 Months

Hi Doggie,

I'm writing this while watching you fall asleep, it's been 1 day till 6 months since your cute head lie on my shoulder on the bench :) and i still enjoy seeing you go to bed whenever the opportunity allows me to!

Ahh how time flies in the past half a year, 2009 comes to an end and this marks the halfway flag of to our anniversary <3 Everyday I ask myself whether this is the relationship I want to be in, and everyday I get the same answer. I Love You Doggie.

Hopefully some day we can be together everyday under the same roof, looking out for each other, sharing hugs and kisses. But for the moment, I'm just contented to be with this special girl that I really think I love very much. Shhh... don't tell anyone but i really really really think that i love this girl alot <3 Hopefully she doesn't hear this :P

*Huggies* Merry X'mas

And Half an Anniversary too! <3 <3

From Tropic Bear =)

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Long Distance Relationship <3

Today, I heard a girl talking about relationship.

'Long distance relationship is so torturing. You feel like breaking up but you can't because you still love him. If you don't break up, you feel tortured because he's so far away.'

And then, I realised I can't relate to her experience though I'm having a long distance relationship as well. Never did I feel tortured (perhaps only lately due to the overwhelming feelings since meeting Tropic Bear is only one week away T_T - emoticon of the growth of the missing feeling, not sadness).

Tropic Bear must be the reason why this is so. He was always a call away. He was always there for me. Never did I feel alone.

I hope this feeling lasts. It has lasted for 3 months after all.


Digressing. Here's my comment on a blogger's negative view about love:

Frankly, I had a very bad experience too. My ex was one moment cold one moment hot. He was like a typical example for your blog post. After I broke up with him, I was so hurt and thought that guys were all like that as well as you said.

But then, he came along. Unexpectedly. He wasn't anything like you said. He remembers every memory we hold, every moment we had. He cares, he cherishes, he appreciates.

This sounds so impossible but he himself was a rationalist who sneered at other relationships until he met me. And I was disappointed and dejected in relationships until I met him again.

I believe that love comes along unexpectedly. There will be one guy out there who comes along in your life whom you will willingly give up any guys to settle with ONE guy.

From, Doggie

Tropic Bear Can't Wait! <3

Hi Doggie,

5 more days I keep telling myself, 5 more days.

As the day approaches, time seems to past slower. Haven't had more than 5 hours of continuous sleep since I cme back. Sowee for being busy with all the gatherings too. But I'll make it up by not sleeping at night for you Doggie :)

Waiting for you to be back still :D

And by that I mean both after your dinner and also back in my arms <3 <3

Tropic Bear,
Jump Jump Jump :P

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Doggie Had A Long Day

Hi! :) I had such a long Monday today. It's 11pm now and I feel like heading to bed but I can't sleep now! I must finish my work so that I have time to talk to Tropic Bear tomorrow!

Ganbatte ganbatte *motivates self*

From, Doggie

Saturday, December 5, 2009

I'm Really Sorry :(

Dear Doggie,

I'm sorry. Period.

No excuse for how I forgot or woke up but dozed off again. The main point was i made a mistake and I should take responsibility. Forgiveness won't come easily and I understand that but hopefully I'll be able to make it up to you because even the thought of losing you is too hard to bare.

The trust you place on me is more than you have ever trusted anyone else, and for that I appreciate it. I'm the guy you want to be looking after you and not disappointing you. I hope you can forgive me for my mistakes and more importantly I'll learn from them. Each time I hurt you, I still remember deep down in my heart not to commit the same mistake again. Because it feels equally painful seeing you cry my dear :'(

From the first time I hurt you in UM, when I tried hurrying you. Till today, the incident is fresh in my mind hoping to avoid making the same mistake again. I don't hurry you anymore because I know you don't like it. The last time we met, I made an even bigger mistake of losing myself. That, till now I don't forgive myself. I wish I could turn back time to change things, but then again it is impossible.

Across the years, I'll make mistakes big and small, but when I do please tell me dear. Because I want to be a better guy for you. The one that knows what to do in every situation to turn a sad face into a smiley one. To make you happier on so many occasions that you don't remember the sad ones. I hope to learn from what I have done wrong and change.

I make mistakes too dear, but I'll keep changing just for you.
Please forgive me.

A Very Sorry Tropic Bear.

P.s. I'll call you when I settle down at about after your lunch time dear. Don't worry I'll keep you updated constantly <3

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Hi! :)

Suddenly felt that there was nothing to do after all those busy days. There are work but I didn't want to start anything new because it will be half done before I go to bed in half an hour's time and I'm quite tired to do anything anyway and...

*tries to find more excuses*

Just thought I would update this blog! :) I love tropic bear! :)

And I'm missing him right now.

How do you feel when you met someone who knows you inside out, who knows your every laughter, who can tell you are sad from your tone etc?

How would you describe it?

Because that's exactly how I feel.


Friday, November 27, 2009

Love, Is Priceless

My dear doggie,

It's been 5 months now and today I was reminded of how beautiful our relationship is. A dream, albeit a short and brief one tells me of how much love you have for me. As time goes by, I have come to appreciate how much this relationship means to me.

As time passes, things I used to overlook now seem so much more clear to me. Nowadays, I appreciate the things you do for me even though it's the smallest thing. I'm truly sure that I have found the right one, the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with. It's you doggie, that makes me so sure of this relationship.

That makes me so sure of the one choice in my life that has truly no regrets.

Maybe as time passes, I'll realize more of you my dear that makes me love you even more. But at the moment, if I were to rate how much love i have for you, I wouldn't.

After all,

Is Priceless

Your Fuzzy Tropic Bear :)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

It has been awhile since I last met you.

It was one fine morning. Someone was calling for me. I walked out of my room and find myself on top of a spiral stairway. The venue was posh and grand.

In front of me, I saw a few men in white clothing from top to toe. One of them was your brother. He directed me to look down the stairs.

And at the bottom of the stairs was you. You were in white clothing as well, holding a bouquet of white roses.

You were like a prince charming in the childhood stories we used to read.

I was delighted. I walked towards you.

And then, I woke up.

It was a dream, the most beautiful one I have ever had.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Love <3

Dear Tropic Bear,


I love the way how you know me inside out.

I love the way how when I'm all messed up and emo, you would always know what to say or what to do. You always make things right.

I love how you tease me about my cooking skills.

I love how we talk about the future and how our kids will be like. The future always seems so beautiful with you.

I love how you would always be so understanding and tolerant. Deep down I know I cannot find another guy who has better temper than you.

I love how you are so cute sometimes.

I love how we never take this for granted despite the chatting everyday.

I'm grateful I get to talk to you everyday. I'm grateful to have you as my darling.

Loads of love,
Your Doggie

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Random :)

Hi again!

Lately I haven't been writing posts due to the impending finals which take up half of my time and the other half is reserved for doggie :) Doggie went out today for shopping and hopefully she'll buy something ( at least 1 item ) Hehe :P

Okaaayyy tropic bear suddenly sounds very greedy.. Anyway the gift tropic bear has in mind for her now sits waiting to be delivered, after all the red tape has been settled. Yay! Hopefully doggie will like it (she probably will) after all even I want it for myself. Just didn't had the heart to buy it all this while!

Anyway things are getting a little busy these days for tropic bear with all the honey-eating, tree-climbing and hunting to do. Haha! Gotcha right there :)

Enough of the small talk, main point of this post : Happy 4 months darling! <3

Tropic Bear

Monday, October 26, 2009

Four months

I went out with a friend today. A guy friend, to be exact.

I asked Tropic Bear for approval before I did.

However, just now, it suddenly dawn upon me that it must have taken a lot of trust for Tropic Bear (someone who's so protective. Haha) to let me go out with another guy.

And yet, his last words for me before I left was 'have fun'.

Superb guy, isn't he? :) I love you, my dear darling. Though I know you have no rights to control what I do but thank you for that. :)

Happy four months being together <3

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Tropic Bear is cute <3

I have a personal blog. After having not updated it for a very long time, I posted a blog entry and Tropic Bear commented a day right after that.

Doggie: How did you know I updated? You must have been lucky to just happen popping by at my blog!

Tropic Bear: I check your blog everyday. That's how I know.

Doggie: Why do you check everyday? You want to click on the links on my blog? You don't know how to spell so-and-so's blog link? *cute cute kid's voice*

Tropic Bear: Ya ya. How do you spell _____? *fakes spelling error*

LOL. I can't totally describe it but the scene was very cute!!! :D

There's something else I want to say too. Two days ago, I was very mad at Tropic Bear. People often argue not because of the topic that started the argument but rather how they argue. I remember being mad at Tropic Bear because he wanted to rush me off so that he won't scold me for something else that bothered him. I was very sad and mad because I should be there to listen and share the burden no?

(Tropic Bear later on told me that the reason why he held back his words because he was afraid of being angry out of insignificant issues and later on regretted it.)

After talking to Tropic Bear, I was feeling better until Tropic Bear got frustrated in comforting me (because he didn't know I was okay already) and said 'I don't wanna talk anymore'..

.. which sparked my anger because that sounded so irresponsible. Never have I end the conversation before because I don't wanna talk. Never did I not pick up his phone call because I don't wanna talk.

So I said 'bye bye' and angrily went to bed. I thought that he was pissed off too since he did not call back or message me.

He called me the next morning (like 7.30 am in the morning on a Saturday) apologising. I was still very mad (thinking that he's selfish because he woke me up so that he can clear the issue which in return will make him feel better). I went back to bed again and talked to him only a few hours later.

Conversation didn't go on well and I started having a slight doubt on whether this guy is reliable. Whatever he said sounded solely from his point of view, contradicting with the fact that he once said he loves me more than himself. I'm not asking him to put my life in front of his but it sounded as if everything he said wasn't meant from his heart.

I thought that me keep walking away from the conversation might just let him lose it and wanted to let this relationship go. However, later on, he messaged me saying that he's sorry which sounded much more sincere and that became sort of a wake-up call that I might have take things a little too far.

We later on talked and talked and became just as close as before. :)

Friends told me that they were angry at their boyfriends before and refused to pick up their calls. I can never have that heart to do so.. and I hope I never will.

Saturday, October 3, 2009



Today, was the first time you told me something that truly hurt me. I never thought those words would come out of you, after all we have been through. Maybe I have been possessive, or perhaps asking a little too much out of you.

All I wanted was just to talk, that was why I waited everyday for the whole week to call you. Maybe it was the wait that made me impatient. Or perhaps the lack of sleep contributed to me being demanding. When you said those words this morning, it came to me that how much it hurts to hear you say it. I'm trying my best to make it work and maybe it still isn't enough.

Perhaps I might have done something wrong that I don't even realize. If only you would tell me what I did wrong and let me correct it. I would work even harder to make sure this works. I truly love you and I still do.

There was once a certain someone asked me what would I do if you told me that you didn't want this anymore. My answer was firm that I would double my efforts to keep you around me. That was 3 months ago, what was the answer then it still hasn't changed.

I have missed you so much darling, maybe it's because you are occupied with a new life you don't realize how much I'm missing you right now. But deep down i hope you still do and I know that those words you said were words of frustration. Yet, it still hurts.

I Love You darling, I hope you still do.

Tropic Bear :'(

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

A Letter For You

To My Dear Tropic Bear,

As you come to this hour of day, I'm so proud of you! You have made it a whole twelve hours without me :D *huggies* And so did I, where's my hugs? :P

I can survive with not seeing you but not talking to you??? Ohh I just found a way to commit suicide. Ahhh I'm so nervous I don't know what I'm talking about.

Okay, lets get straight to the point. As I'm writing this, I'll share with you my feelings before I depart.


It's three days before my departure, making our distance even further. Today, I dreamt about receiving a letter that you said someone told me we aren't gonna make through due to the 8 hours difference of time zone but you told me it's not gonna be so. I wonder how are we gonna be like later on? Will I still get to talk to you often? I remember the day when you left, when I waved goodbye to you in the airport, I thought our chats were gonna reduce but I'm so grateful it didn't. In fact, we got closer to each other. I hope we will too after I have left.

I also read a star today about us rushing from Mid Valley. You said you smile just thinking of that. Dear, did you know, when you held my hand running and reassuring me that we will make it there on time, I thought to myself 'if we could make it through this, we will make it through anything.' I don't know why I had that thought but I still believe so till now.



Two days left. I went out with my friends for a farewell. I came back being hyper and you were happy seeing me that way :) The farewell was in a familiar place where we both dated before. Seeing the places reminded me so much of you. Absence really do make the heart grows fonder.

Later in the night, I felt very sensitive about something you said. I know it was just me being extra sensitive and emo but you being you would always know how to comfort me and never blame me for feeling that way. You are such an understanding and sweet guy, my dear. If there's one thing on earth that I cannot afford to lose, it's definitely you.



One day left to leave you even further away. Frankly, talking to you so much made me only sink into reality today that I'm really leaving, leaving to a place where there will be 8 hours of difference in time. I wonder how do you feel now dear? You seem to be happy that I can finally go out there and see the world.

One more day, dear. Yet, it would be a step closer to the moment where I can see you again. I'll always look forward to the time when we could meet each other again. You once said it was worth waiting for it and I know what that really means now.


I hope you don't find this post earlier. As this post was really meant for you to read when I'm not around for you to chat with. Hope you would have a good day tomorrow when I depart. Do know that even when I'm not talking to you, my mind still thinks of you and my heart still longs for you. I love you with all my heart.

*hugs and kisses*

From Your Baby Doggie.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Busy Doggie Running Around

Doggie has been rather busy lately, so tropic bear is playing the role of being a good companion waiting for doggie. It is understandable that doggie has been so busy with doggie swimming cross the ocean to a brand new place next week. For the following week, doggie will be even busier with all the packing and stuff. But tropic bear can wait :)

Too bad tropic bear can only stay in the tropics, if not he would have followed doggie across the ocean. Hence, tropic bear gives doggie a hug and kiss to bring across the sea <3

From Tropic Bear,
*Hug + Kiss*

Monday, September 14, 2009

A Short Commercial Break =)

Tropic Bear: I would always give you chocolates.. but you give me something more.. hope :)

I like this line. But I'm afraid I interpret it wrongly. Like maybe he means I give him hope that there are girls like me out there? (like the way how he gave me hope) But I hope not! I want to be The One >_< How impossible.. But I'll just appreciate what we have now..

-Copied from Doggie's Diary dated 12/6/2009-

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Doggie meets Tropic Bear on 4/9 (2)

After breakfast, we headed to Tropic Bear's brother's house to take a break. I met Tropic Bear's brother. I said 'Hi!' very cheerfully with my hand-waving action! His brother looked as if he was suppressing his smile that says that I looked childish. Okay, maybe I was thinking too much.

We rested a while and then headed off to meet someone together! I can't mention who this guy is but he's one of people that indirecty brings Tropic Bear and Doggie together, so it felt like an amazing moment!

We took public transport together. Having Tropic Bear's hand in mine makes me feel safe and secure even though I rarely take public transport. It felt like Tropic Bear is all that I need to keep my world safe.

I was late for the appointment :( Earlier on, Tropic Bear kept reassuring me that we won't be late. So it's Tropic Bear's fault xD

Thankfully, he (the person, not Tropic Bear) didn't mind much about it. We had a very inspiring chat. I was very impressed in fact! I asked Tropic Bear what he thought and he said 'ohhh quite good but not to the level of being impressive' nonchalantly. And then I kept convincing him it was impressive.

We then headed back to his brother's house again and took a break before getting lunch. An incident occured in which Tropic Bear forced me to do something I didn't want. I felt he didn't respect my decision. He promised he will never do so again and felt so guilty. I forgave him at that point.

However, after we bought lunch (the lunch was so late it became dinner), I didn't feel alright after recalling the incident. I couldn't get over it. I cried while he was driving and several times, he said he wanted to stop the car at the side on the highway to discuss about it. It was the first time Tropic Bear saw me crying.

At that time, I couldn't convince myself that it was alright he broke his promise because I have trusted him all this while. Did that mean he will break his other promises as well? And also, I realised that even though so, I forgave him because I love him but that doesn't mean I'm over it. I also felt bad for feeling that way again because we seemed to have resolve the issue earlier on..

Tropic Bear looked so scary to me when he said 'so have you forgiven me?' with his frustrated tone.

I later on fell asleep in the car, woke up to realise that I was covered by a jacket. We have not reached our destination because there was a massive trafic jam.

Tropic Bear hasn't eaten till this point. Poor bear..

We reached the mall and I was having stomach pain (probably gastric). Tropic Bear bought me a hot chocolate and we sat down to talk in the cafe. We had a very good heart-to-heart talk about the incident. Tropic Bear held my hands when he talked. He said he didn't want to be remembered this way and hopefully we will have a good day tomorrow.

Lunch was dinner, so we skipped a meal! We went to the hotel later on and Tropic Bear bought us cakes as supper. We bathed then chatted on the bed while eating our delicious cakes xD We stayed up a little later on and went to sleep to start a brand new day tomorrow.

PS: It was also today we crossed the line that we drew the previous time.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Tropic Bear Meets Doggie on 4/9 (1)

3 days ago tropic bear went on an adventure to meet doggie! A week before meeting doggie he already was very excited and bugged doggie about their weekend plans everyday. So on Thursday night, he flew from one country to another just so he could see her.

When he was stuck in the airport, he managed to steal internet and turn on msn :) Even though tropic bear was meeting doggie in a few hours, he just couldn't resist talking to doggie again. They talked for a while but doggie was about to leave home for her big day !

Tropic bear missed doggie so dearly, he woke up almost 2 hours before the time they were supposed to meet. He bathed and groomed himself, hopefully to impress doggie this time around. He actually left for doggie's place an hour early and called her several times but there was no response.

Anxiety started worrying tropic bear, what if doggie overslept by 2 hours ? What could he do to wake her up ? Lucky for him doggie called him just a few minutes late and things went smoothly after that <3

When first seeing doggie, tropic bear was feeling so much emotions. Try understanding how seeing the doggie you love so much almost everyday but not being able to hug it, touch it or feel it. The moment tropic bear saw doggie, all the emotions came back and reminded him of how doggie changed his life half a year ago <3 <3

We shall resume this post when tropic bear is in a better state of mind. Due to sleep deprivation and a possible Bear Flu, tropic bear will resume when he doesn't feel so sick xD

Tropic Bear,

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Doggie meets Tropic Bear on 4/9 (1)

Because I believe every moment spent with Tropic Bear is a memorable moment, hence I'll blog about every bit of them! :)

The day started with Tropic Bear flying from one country to my country and later picked me up at my place. Not having a good sleep beforehand, I overslept (luckily not a lot!). When he called, I quickly rushed to get myself ready to meet him.

I find it quite funny because I was so excited to meet him (you know counting down the hours) and I actually missed the timing by a few minutes ><

He spammed my sms inbox beforehand. The sms that I remembered most was 'ahhh so excited to see you!! :D traffic jam here =.='

The first minute when I saw tropic bear, he was sitting on the same place where we used to have our chats. Have you felt like you don't know what to feel? I felt that way because it felt so unreal to see Tropic Bear in front of me. For all the time, we haven't been meeting often and seeing him most of the times were on video calls. When he was there, it felt very much like seeing your movie superstar jumping out of the screen.

We later on went for breakfast. Trying to figure out GPS could sometimes be so annoying. We couldn't find the place and we were both hungry. Hence, we went to a nearby restaurant.

Tropic Bear asked the waiter whether the soft-boiled eggs that is in the menu set can be changed to hard-boiled ones. How cute <3 I watched as the waiter shaked his head.

I can't exactly remember how breakfast went on. As I recall the morning, I don't know why everything seems so blur in memory. Maybe I should get some sleep now. I'll continue the day some other time! :)

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Together Forever?

My Dear Tropic Bear,

In just a matter of hours, you will be reaching soon. Let me tell you something frankly okie?

I'm afraid :(

I'm afraid that we will not be 'together forever' due to the distance :(

Sigh. Distance doesn't scare me. It's the thought of not being with you. I never had that fear as much because.. I never really care whether I was together forever with others or not.

But this is different. It's you, my dear. And I really hope so.

I read M's blog about how she broke up with her boyfriend of four years whom she thought she was gonna marry some day. They didn't make it through.

Will we, dear? I know you placed 100% faith in this. I know how you feel about me. Sometimes, when I said I'm amazed how much love you have for me, I really do because deep inside my heart, I have the same amount for you too.

I sometimes wonder why based on these few months, we are already so certain of each other. But the joy with you is just so indescribable, like nothing else in the world matters except you. Will we still feel the same way, say five years down the road? Will we?

Okay. Let's talk about happy stuff! You are coming to my place in a couple of hours time. I can't waittttt :D :D :D

It's gonna be a good day tomorrow <3

Love you very muchie,

Tuesday, September 1, 2009


Tropic bear always seems to worry about doggie.

He worries when you wake up at 5.30 in the morning and text messages him.
He worries when you calls him at 6.30 and tells him you have a headache and feel like vomiting.
He worries that you will sometimes feel alone in London.
He worries when you don't reply his messages for more than an hour.

Sometimes when he worries he doesn't let you know.
Sometimes he also worries about the times he can't be there for you.

Then again tropic bear cares about you more than you can imagine.
When he's worried nothing seems to matter and he puts everything on his hand down just to make sure doggie is perfectly fine.

It hurts him to know that you aren't fine most of the time.
He would rather be in your place than let you shoulder the burden alone.

Tropic Bear just can't stop loving and worrying about you.

Monday, August 31, 2009

Mishee You

To, My Dear Tropic Bear

I had a very long chat with you yesterday night over a lot of issues. One of them was my ex. Perhaps what you said was right - I shouldn't have talked to him in the first place. Perhaps what you said was wrong because after all, I have no feelings for him anymore.

Yet, at that point of time, I didn't bother to think whether it was right or wrong. My main concern was that I have to make sure you are feeling okay. Anything to make you okay.

Sigh. I'm missing you so much right now.

The few days at the beginning of my departure, we might have situations like this, not able to talk to each other for hours.

Maybe I should start getting used to this.

But right now, I miss you..

Sunday, August 30, 2009

That Sense Of Admiration

Yes, the blog's title isn't called A sense of admiration. Instead, it's THAT sense of admiration. It's the special sense of admiring Tropic Bear.

Today, I was ranting to Tropic Bear about my problems, expecting only a pair of ears because just having someone to listen to you makes a world of difference.

Tropic Bear did better than that. He gave me advice. Very sensible advice.

He also told me about his thoughts which were really deep and stood out from what normal people think of.

Listening to his advice makes me realised how fortunate I am to find a guy who's sensible and loving at the same time. Not many people can be rational and emotional. Tropic Bear is equipped with both.

And at the point, I felt this whole new sense of admiration for him.

PS: About the last entry, I felt slightly hurt over that. However, I fit in his shoes and thought about how exhausted he was (poor him!). He's accompanying me tonight, so I guess that made up for it. Teehee.


Feeling guilty can come in many ways.

It doesn't take you to cheat on your other half to feel it, neither do you need to have an unnecessary argument with doggie. Sometimes, when one is tired, we tend to regret the things that we do.

Last night was the day doggie created this blog, it felt so sweet when doggie told me about it. Unfortunately at that time doggie was busy, so I tried waiting for her to finish what she was doing. Tiredness overcame me and I couldn't go on waiting anymore, right now I wish I did.

I'm sowee doggie, a couple of hours later guilt engulfed me. Realization struck me that how insensitive I was towards your feelings. Sometimes tropic bear tries very hard to be the perfect partner but fails miserably.

And right now, he feels miserable. Will you forgive him?

A Bear That Loves You Dearly,
Tropic Bear

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Is all these worth it?

I've been searching for something. Well, I can't say what it is but lets' call it, say a table.

So, I have been searching for a table, any table will do ever since I completed my high school studies but with no luck. I did my pre-u and still no luck.

Now, how interested am I to search for this table? I frankly wonder. Today I got a slap (not literally) about me not putting in enough effort in my search for it.

Is it true? In fact, I'm also starting to wonder if I'm worth to be the owner of the table.

Now, with no table, will I look back one day, say ten years down the line and think, 'thank goodness I couldn't find a table back then. It would have rob an opportunity in present time.' Will I?

I don't know. It's too hard to tell where the future lies. And it doesn't help that I'm starting to doubt myself.

I can't stand the pressure anymore. I don't know what I'm typing. Gonna talk to Tropic Bear now. Bye.

First Post

Today marks the birth of this blog. I'm relieved! I had a blog which is by my own name and I can finally write anything I want under an anonymous name, simply 'Doggie'.

Yesterday, I read my diary to Tropic Bear about how we met. He was very touched and melted. Hence, when I realised that we can have a blog together, whether for the public's view or for just two of us, I jumped at the opportunity.

Tropic Bear has yet to know about this. I hope he likes the idea though. I'm thinking of posting my thoughts and feelings here next time. It would be easier to share these with my Tropic Bear.

Till her for now. Not sure will post up what but there will posts to come.