Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Happy 7 Months Together, My Dear

Dear Tropic Bear,

As I'm typing this, there's only an hour more (in my time zone) to us being 7 months together while you are still asleep since it's 7 am for you.

It's 7 months together, my dear. Seven freaking months. It seems so little at the same time it seems so much. It felt little because I could still vividly remember our first month together. You called me a day earlier by mistake. I could still remember that grin that glowed in you when we succeeded going through one month because you proved to me one month of long distance relationship was possible.

At the same time, it seems so much as we have been through so much things together. From being tickled by fishes in fish spa to ice-skating together, we have had so much beautiful memories.

It's seven months already, dear. Having you seems to be growing in me already. My feelings towards you have changed since we got together. There was something extra incorporated in our relationship now. You have become like air to me. Having you everyday has becoming something like a habit. The morning talks have become a routine in our relationship. I'm sure you agree on this. Telling each other about our day is something I already know that will happen everyday.

It's just like air.. it's there everyday.. Just like you. You would always be there for me.

And I know, just like air, if I would one day lose you, it would hurt so much I would feel like killing myself.

That's why no matter how tired I am, I learnt that there will still be a part of me that longs to talk to you, even though I could just be too tired to talk to you. Maybe it was for a reason. Maybe it was for a million of reasons. Maybe it's just plainly because I want to hear your voice before I head to bed.

Crap, I'm crying right now. How silly of me.

Deep down, I know that I miss you more than I can ever imagine. That is why I avoid thinking about our memories, avoid looking at our photos etc. Handling the feeling of missing you while not talking is bad enough, what's more while you are not even here.

I hope all these sacrifices will prove worth it in the end.

You said I thought you how to love someone. My dear, you taught me how to love someone so deeply too.

You taught me how to be a better person. You are the big brother, the boyfriend, the best friend, the teacher etc. You are everything to me.

Thank you for your love, my darling. Happy 7 months together and more to come!

PS. I Love You

Love Loads,

Thursday, January 21, 2010


We were not in good terms on the phone. I was being mad at you. You were being frustrated over me not being happy.

I wish I could release you from the burden of being in a long distance relationship. I love you so much. Knowing that you have to balance between me and your studies hurts me. Knowing that I can get pretty emotional and you may not be able to handle it. Knowing that it would take you so much efforts to pursue this.

You suggested for a break now.

Maybe it's time to think about it again.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Dear Tropic Bear,

I'm sorry for not remembering the time of our talk session. It slipped my mind. I have so many reasons yet I know none of them can justify of my poor memory.

It hurts right to the core of the heart when you said 'like that also can forget'.

I'm sorry, dear.. :'(


I Found This On A Microsoft Word Doc Dated 17/11/09 :)

I Love You

(My Name)


From your dearest Boyfriend (Your Name) J

More smileys :D :D


PS: Bet you forgot about this too! :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010


It has been 3 days since you left for London and now everything starts all over again. The letters, the midnight calls and the time difference waiting for you to wake up <3

The reason why yesterday I asked you to join your friends to play games instead of talking wasn't because I didn't miss you. In fact I missed you more than ever, especially being alone in the room. But I knew that you needed to join your friends to feel less lonely. Remember in UM when tropic bear was having orientation, you joined loads of activities to keep yourself occupied for the first few weeks.

I want that for doggie too, to be able to go out with your friends and have fun. I don't want to hold you back keeping you in tears just for me. Hopefully in time you won't feel so much pain every time you think of me but still hold on tight to those memories of you and me.

*hugs* Wish you were here beside me too, but I know that won't be true for at least the next few months. But I'll wait for you I promise you doggie <3

Tropic Bear <3
I wish I'm just beside you seeing you asleep now..