LDR

We were not in good terms on the phone. I was being mad at you. You were being frustrated over me not being happy.

I wish I could release you from the burden of being in a long distance relationship. I love you so much. Knowing that you have to balance between me and your studies hurts me. Knowing that I can get pretty emotional and you may not be able to handle it. Knowing that it would take you so much efforts to pursue this.

You suggested for a break now.

Maybe it's time to think about it again.

Apologies

Dear Tropic Bear,

I'm sorry for not remembering the time of our talk session. It slipped my mind. I have so many reasons yet I know none of them can justify of my poor memory.

It hurts right to the core of the heart when you said 'like that also can forget'.

I'm sorry, dear.. :'(

Doggie

I Found This On A Microsoft Word Doc Dated 17/11/09 :)

I Love You

(My Name)

<3

From your dearest Boyfriend (Your Name) J

More smileys :D :D

*huggies*

PS: Bet you forgot about this too! :)

*Huggies*

It has been 3 days since you left for London and now everything starts all over again. The letters, the midnight calls and the time difference waiting for you to wake up <3

The reason why yesterday I asked you to join your friends to play games instead of talking wasn't because I didn't miss you. In fact I missed you more than ever, especially being alone in the room. But I knew that you needed to join your friends to feel less lonely. Remember in UM when tropic bear was having orientation, you joined loads of activities to keep yourself occupied for the first few weeks.

I want that for doggie too, to be able to go out with your friends and have fun. I don't want to hold you back keeping you in tears just for me. Hopefully in time you won't feel so much pain every time you think of me but still hold on tight to those memories of you and me.

*hugs* Wish you were here beside me too, but I know that won't be true for at least the next few months. But I'll wait for you I promise you doggie <3

Love,
Tropic Bear <3

I wish I'm just beside you seeing you asleep now..

It Has Been Six Months, My Dear

Dear Tropic Bear,

As I'm typing this, you are now driving home (not speeding, I hope).

Thank you for today and the past six months. It has been truly wonderful to spend my time with you. All those doubt and hesitation I had when you first took my hand have proven themselves to be worthless as every moment spend with you is a beautiful moment.

Sometimes I do wonder whether we will last in the future. The future seems full of hope if we continue to make efforts to see each other and value our time with each other just like what we do now.

Thank you for all your love and care. It feels great to be loved and to love. To put it in your words, 'it feels so nice to be sayang-ed'.

Frankly, my stomach ache today put me in fear that I will ruin my date with you today. What if we don't enjoy ourselves at the end? What if you coming all the way from home is wasted? At one point, I felt really bad and wanted to go home, so that I wouldn't ruin the day further.

But then you were so caring and loving that I can't bring myself to do that. So I told myself, since I'm here already, I might as well not care anymore and just go with the flow.

True enough, every moment spent with you is special regardless of what we do or whether we planned them anot. Just me sitting on your lap talking about your friends on facebook, just us opening each other's present when the rain was pouring heavily outside, just us shopping for your clothes etc seems to be enjoyable somehow.

Perhaps this is love. Love makes everything enjoyable between two people regardless of what they do. Love makes the suffer and torture (of stomach pain in this case :P) more bearable.

Thank you for everything, my dear. I look forward to spending my future decades with you.

Yours truly,

Doggie

X'mas & A Day Away From 6 Months

Hi Doggie,

I'm writing this while watching you fall asleep, it's been 1 day till 6 months since your cute head lie on my shoulder on the bench :) and i still enjoy seeing you go to bed whenever the opportunity allows me to!

Ahh how time flies in the past half a year, 2009 comes to an end and this marks the halfway flag of to our anniversary <3 Everyday I ask myself whether this is the relationship I want to be in, and everyday I get the same answer. I Love You Doggie.

Hopefully some day we can be together everyday under the same roof, looking out for each other, sharing hugs and kisses. But for the moment, I'm just contented to be with this special girl that I really think I love very much. Shhh... don't tell anyone but i really really really think that i love this girl alot <3 Hopefully she doesn't hear this :P

*Huggies* Merry X'mas

And Half an Anniversary too! <3 <3

*kisses*
From Tropic Bear =)